Home is where the heart is…
I realized today that homes and hearts are more similar than I had ever thought. As I sat in my living room looking at all the “stuff” laying everywhere I was overwhelmed to say the least.
Annie said to me, wow it’s amazing I never knew you had so much stuff until it’s pulled out. Oh man that got my mind running more than it already was. How true that statement was and how it parallels our hearts.
In our homes we have chests and drawers, cabinets and closets in which the “stuff” of our lives is so neatly placed, or if you are like me, some not so neatly (but I do know where things are). So too our hearts have their own chest and drawers, cabinets and closets. These places we call caverns where we place the “stuff” of our lives.
Here’s where the last year all came rushing back to me in a flash….sorta like back to the future style, as I didn’t have too much time to ponder it all. We can stuff the hiding places in our homes and our hearts. We can pack it all in, at times it’s neat and tidy and other times we throw it in and try and squeeze the door closed. We pile “stuff” on “stuff” and we continue to shove the old farther and farther back in the deemed space until we forget it’s even there….
Then comes the time to move, or in my case, pack it all up to walk away for awhile. When spaces are emptied and is sitting in piles there’s alot, it’s messy and it’s overwhelming because we just don’t know where to start. Same things happens with our hearts if we don’t deal with our “stuff”, when we don’t go before the Lord with the places of our hearts, when we shove wound upon wound, heartache upon heartache, insecurity upon insecurity, when it is time to look at it, boy it’s alot. We just don’t even know where to start, but, we have to start somewhere because there’s only so deep and wide a closet before things begin to creep out.
I have spent the last year opening up the closets, the cabinets, the drawers and the chests and dealing with the “stuff” of my heart. It’s been the most BRUTIFUL (brutal+beautiful) experience of my life; if asked to do it all over again knowing what it would look and feel like I WOULD!!! As I literally purge and repack my life so that I might walk away for six months I couldn’t be more excited for what it come, what diamonds will be unfolded.
As this year 29 wraps up for me I cannot wait for this next journey to begin……