One of my guy friends uses a phrase entirely too often, most of the time it drives me crazy….he doesn’t know this, so it will stay our little secret!!! Deal? You ready to hear what it is?
“THAT SMASHES ME OUT!!!”
Yep, I hear it all too often, but here’s the thing, in the last two months or so I can’t even tell you how many times the Lord has so faithfully, “smashed me out” and for that I could not be more grateful!
I absolutely loving reading books that literally rip open my heart and cause me to question all I’m walking through. Well if you haven’t heard of Hinds Feet on High Places, it’s one of those books. I couldn’t put the thing down. The problem was though, that I couldn’t stop journaling either. Read a page, write 5, read a page, write 3, read a page…..cry! But there was one passage from that book that completely changed my life.
This year was marked as my year that God would be unveiling beauty in me I didn’t know I possessed. It very much has been. When we hear the word beauty, especially inward beauty many things come to mind for me. In this passage God is talking to Much-Afraid and He tells her what He finds most beautiful. In reading this I was “SMASHED OUT!”
“You have one real beauty, Much-Afraid, you have such trustful eyes. Trust is one of the most beautiful things in the world. When I looked at the trust in your eyes I find you more beautiful to look upon than many a lovely queen.” -Hinds Feet on High Places
Trust? Really? Of all the traits I might possess that God would find beautiful trust never even occurred to me. Not once. After I stopped to think about it I was dumbfounded by my dumbness….of course it’s trust. For without trust there can be no life. If I do not trust the Lord in ALL things how will I ever trust those around me, how can I trust my circumstances and so on. I CAN’T!!! Period, plain and simple, it’s just not possible.
After I read this God asked me to trust Him, He then asked me to trust my family, my friends, my life, their hearts, their motives, and to trust the Jesus in them. I was then asked to trust that God always has my best and even more than all this, the hardest part, TRUST THE LOVE AND THE PAIN.
When we do not trust the Lord or those He’s places in our lives He can never fully, love, choose or fight for our hearts. The day I realized this beauty was the day that I found both joy and peace for their is great comfort in knowing the Master of the Universe has the best for me always.
Do you trust? Do you possess this beauty? Would you choose this beauty?
-Smashed Out Crenshaw