She’s Really Doing it.


The Beatiful Taren

There are few things in this world I love more than watching my friends do the thing they were created to do.

Last weekend my beautiful, talented, creative, loving friend Taren Maroun brought her beautiful face (and HAIR) into this town. We lived on the YWAM campus in Kona a few years back.  We hit it off IMMEDIATELY!!! She’s a little fire cracker oozing with creativity.

She graced Medford with her presence to help me with some media stuff. A few months back super late at night she text me and said, “What’s the password to your website? I’m on a roll, let me spruce it up.” So began the back and forth until she arrived.  We did some photos we shot some video and we are almost ready to launch the new website!  I’m so excited and God’s timing is SOOOO perfect.  Here is one of the demo videos we shot.

The Scars

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The Scars

As I gazed up at the weight resting up the once very broken arm, my mind began to wander. The realization that once this arm was shattered, it took 2 plates and 16 screws to put it back together. I can look at it and remember, but I can also look at see the strength that has come out of that life altering moment in time. I know I am stronger for the brokenness, I am stronger in spite of the scars. They mark me, but do not define me. The brokenness only made me stronger.

Do You Really Believe That?


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Do you believe that God actually wants to give you the desires of your heart?  Do you believe that He really does want the best for you?  Do you trust that you life is better in His control than in yours?  

The desires of your heart…we hear this verse being quoted all the time, right???  The interesting this is what comes before and after this sentence.  This verse is out of Psalm 37

Trust in the Lord and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

The first thing says to trust in the Lord and do good.  It then goes on to say to dwell in the lang and cultivate faithfulness, take delight in the Lord.  There are things that precede the desires of our hearts.  And when we do these things our desires begin to be God’s desires.  It’s not that all of a sudden we get we want.  Our desires become His desires.  Our hearts change and we love what He loves and hate what He hates.  The verse then continues with;

Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this.

Commit your ways, that means we give our lives and our ways to the one who created us.  Begin to let the Lord dictate was is going on in your life, trust Him with your life and be ready for your life to be radically altered.  You will begin to tell some crazy stories of how the Lord has shown up in your life.  He’s faithful, He desires to take care of us.  He’s a good God…always.  He never changes!!!!  Begin to live this out….watch out though, you will never be the same.  

Willing to fight for the best version of you?


Do you ever feel like there’s a woman inside of you who’s dying to get out? 

My story begins with this statement a little over 3 years ago…everything looked good on the outside. My business was successful, I was a successful coach, I had great friends, I drove a pretty sweet car…well at 26 I thought it was sweet and truth be told if you asked me what kind of car it was at the time I probably couldn’t tell you…I go through cars like I go through underwear…I was all good on the outside, dying on the inside.

I wasn’t happy, but more than that I just wanted to be different. I wanted to be the things I felt on the inside but I just didn’t think it was who I was. I have been an athlete all of my life and have never gotten out of the profession, I’m now a gym owner and so the stigma just followed me. I was an athlete, I was intense, I was a badass, I was a beast. If I had a nickel for every time someone said I reminded them of Jillian Michaels…boy I would be rich….and most of the time it was followed up with, “well but you’re of course prettier.” She’s the woman on TV that is only caught on camera screaming at people, getting in their faces, lookin’ all hardcore all the time. Well let’s just say that’s who I was…on the outside. It’s who people saw, it’s who I projected all the while protecting my own heart, but everyday wishing I could be different.

But who I wanted to be was the girl that walked into the room and people found approachable rather than intimidating, I wanted to be the girl had a thin body with shovel handle arms that couldn’t pick up a 50# bag of dog food off the ground if she wanted to…. I actually still wish I had skinny little arms….really I do!!!!  I wanted to be fun, sweet, tender, gentle, patient, compassionate, gracious, but for the life of me I just didn’t know how to do that and pretty much just thought it wasn’t who I was. I just figured I would always be a hard shell that was quick with her mouth, intense, hardcore and unapproachable.
What I would have given for someone to say to me, “You’re that trainer who helps people become a better version or themselves.” “You’re that trainer who really loves her clients and boy they sure know it.” “You’re that trainer that asks people to step out of the their comfort zones and conquer things they never knew possible.” That usually wasn’t the case, I was the fitness nazi, the trainer that makes everyone throw up, the trainer they will NEVER come see because you will kill me…you get the idea.
I wanted to be different, so like any hard nosed, stubborn girl would do I went out looking for ways to fix myself. I looked for this book and that book, this seminar and that concept….I went looking.
Then it happened…..the words came out of her mouth and my life will never be the same. “There’s this man called Jesus and most people don’t know him like I do.” THAT WAS IT!!!! That’s what I was missing. I knew Jesus but I didn’t know him like she did. So I went looking for him and stumbled upon the most amazing journey that has lead me to this very day. A day where I can stand and say to you many tears have been cried, many fires have been walked through, many roads have been filled with twists, turns and plenty of pot holes, many times my heart has wanted to give up pack it in and be done because it’s hard. It’s a hard road that leads to breakthrough. It’s a hard road that leads to freedom. It’s a hard road that leads to KNOWING WHO YOU ARE and KNOWING WHO YOU WERE CREATED TO BE!!!! I KNOW….I KNOW THIS NOW!!!! (Can you hear me bellowing this from the depth of my guts!!!! I KNOW) And let me tell you it’s the most freeing thing in the entire world because God has given me the opportunity to be the clay on his wheel. He has offered me the opportunity to sit perfectly still, unyielding and allowed him to show me who I am.
What happens when God unfolds the diamonds he has placed inside of you? What happens when you realize truly who you are? What happens when you begin to see the lies you have lived behind all your life? What happens when you have broken the chains of bondage and walk a life of freedom? What happens when shame and guilt no longer hold you captive? What happens when you look in the mirror and see beauty first? What happens when you allow others to love you well?
I can tell you that amazing things happen, it’s not easy but it’s worth it. I am free and for the first time in my life I’m about to step out into an adventure I would never have dreamed of. I have lived safe, under control, and very responsible. But, I know who I am now and I know that it’s time to go. So in 10 short days I am walking away from the business that I built from the ground up with all of my blood, sweat and tears. I am selling all I own, packing two bags and moving to Kona, Hawaii to join YWAM in full time missions. It’s the scariest most exciting thing I have ever done and I cannot wait to see the dreams God has for me.
So I challenge you to step back and look at who you are…and decide who it is that you would really choose to be. What are the chains you are bound by? What’s holding you back?
Ok, now it’s your turn….

I Don’t Want to Hide Em Anymore


Maybe it’s a little too much information but I often get some of my deepest most profound revelations from the Lord when I am in the shower.  I have met others that experience the same thing…I guess it’s better than getting them while I’m sitting on the toilet right…hahahaha.  Ok now maybe that was a little too much information.  Oh well…sorry.

Ok anyways, back to the revelation.  I had hopped in the shower for the second time in about an hour.  I took a shower before my workout because I had to run afterwards, but then ended up needing to take another after my workout.  Watch the video below to see why I needed a shower and I will then share the revelation.

Alright Lu so what does a stupid tire flip and a really heavy clean have to do with anything?  I’m in the shower scrubbing off all the dirt and the rubber stains and I realize how fun that was.  Yes, getting a little dirty, wrestling with a tire for about 15 minutes trying to flip the thing, ending up with bruises and a little tire rash was fun!!!!  It’s been many many years since I enjoyed being strong.

I have spent my whole life as an athlete.  I have always been strong, I have a bootie, legs and shoulders…as I have mentioned before.  They benefit me none is singing beautifully or learning to play the guitar.  They do not create grace and beauty as I attempt to dance elegantly.  What they are good for though is running fast, jumping high, picking up heavy things and training at high intensities.  To tell you quite honestly I hated it, I hated being strong.  I would seriously out loud say I wish I wasn’t strong, I wish I had arms that looked like shovel handles and a flat butt that pants slid off of…SERIOUSLY I did, don’t laugh.  It was true.

So back to the revelation, I got out of the shower and I was putting on my clothes for the day and doing my makeup.  I had a super cute outfit for that day, good hair, some bronzer on my cheeks, and some mascara.  I just stopped and smiled and just realized that I had overcome something so incredible.  I never questioned by beauty or femininity as I flipped the tire, I wasn’t a beast as I was flipping the tire.  I was a beautiful woman who was made to be strong, the Lord has given me a platform as a trainer.  It’s who I was created to be.

So for the first time in a very long time my worlds and heart were not divided, I was not the strong girl for one moment and then once the cute outfit, hair and makeup on I was beautifully feminine.  I was just beautiful throughout. There was no dichotomy in my head or my heart.  Oh man what a revelation. If I walk in only certain parts of who God has made me to be, it’s like the parable of the talents in Matthew 25.

The Parable of the Bags of Gold

    14 “Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. 15 To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag,[a] each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16 The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. 17So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. 18 But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

 24 “Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25 So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

   26 “His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27 Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

   28 “‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. 29 For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. 30 And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

I do not want to be the foolish servant.  I want to walk fully in who God has created me to be.  So basically the beautifully feminine athlete inside of me has once again been awakened, but with her comes no shame only a desire to be faithful to what the Lord has given me.

So I ask you this, is there somewhere in your life that you have buried your talents?   A place where you have hidden who God has made you to be.  I say, talents inside of you rise, I say talents inside of you awaken, I say talents you no longer can stay dormant, you must wake up because Jesus needs us to walk in the truth of who He has created me to be!!!!

 

Booties and Boobs Part Deux


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Part Deux….this is my first multi-part blog. It was only supposed to be two parts but I’m thinking it might be more. Alright so here’s the thing, if you haven’t read part one, head over read it then come back here. If you have read it let’s hear what the Lord said about your beauty! Leave His comments in the comments section. I would love to see what He finds beautiful in you!

What matters is not your outer appearance-the styling of your hair, the jewelry you wear, the cut of your clothes – but your inner disposition (1 Peter 3:3-4 MSG)

Gulp….I’m not gonna lie, the fruits of the spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self control Galatians 5:22) is not the first thing I think about when I get out of the shower in the morning. I’m actually thinking about what I’m gonna wear, what will I do with my hair along with picking apart all that’s going on with my face, hair and body. Come on is anyone with me here?!?!

The time is now to be freed of this! I know I want it. Who’s coming with me? Who’s gonna choose to love what God has given us, to allow the beauty inside to begin to shine so that when we walk into the room Jesus is all over us!!!!

The stronghold of body image is a lie of the enemy it is a place in which he keeps us is damaging bondage but freedom is as simple as repenting of our sin and walking with full dependance on the Lord. We must let Him be the one we look to for affirmation, the one that calls out the beauty inside us, because believe it or not He put it there. He placed in us all the beauty of Him yet we walk around hiding it behind the lies of the world. We are walking around thinking that our purpose and identity lie in our outward appearance and that our beauty lies in our outward appearance. Let me tell you a little story, when the Lord started changing my heart people began to tell me how beautiful I was when I would be in sweat pants, a flannel, a hat and no makeup…because the outside was not what was shining it was the change in my heart. As the love of the Lord began to wash over me it was exposed on the outside because God is just that good! I also began to see the beauty that God had placed inside of me.

We must rise above and believe we can be free, believe that we don’t have to be bound by this issue forever!

If you want to be freed then go to the pictures, walk through the places of repentance, receive the forgiveness of the Lord, break off all lies of the enemy, and then begin to replace all the lies with the truth of the Lord! If you were unable to hear the truth of the Father go back and ask, now that repentance and truth has been spoken. Rise up, cry out and let the Lord seriously rock your world. Don’t keep these words silent, stand up and declare them out loud. Declare the thrifts of the Lord in the mirror. If every time the enemy tries to spew you lies, declare the truths of who God says you are. Every time you look in the mirror and speak love over your body pretty soon satan will leave you alone…..run to the courts of the Lord!

Let’s do it, let’s shift this generation and call it a generation who loves what God has created. A generation that speaks life instead of death over our bodies! Ready. Set. Go!!!!

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Thanks again for the Freedom manual by Brian Brennt, walking through strongholds is not a long, drawn out, complex thing.

Also thank you to my beautiful sister in law Ashley Crenshaw (Gypsy Jane Photography) for the beautiful pics.

Sweet Nothings


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My own ears fail me soooooo often? I mean I can hear, but there are things that go in that I am sometimes not even aware of! There are things I hear but I’m actually not even paying attention to. This post won’t be long today but I want to pose a challenge. So today I was watching a YouTube video and found out that a certain artist we listen to all too often has literally denied the name of Jesus on his chart topping song.

We listen, we sing, we dance a little too it not really paying attention to the words falling upon our own hearts, the lines that drop into our spirit. In Jay-Z’s Empire State of Mind song around the 3 minute mark he says “And Jesus can’t save you/Life starts when the church ends.” I used to love that song…it had a great beat. Did I ever pay attention to the words? Not really? But let me tell you I have now perked them. I do not need nor want that stuff dropping into the heart of mine!

Be on guard to the Wiley schemes of the enemy? He would love nothing more than for you to continue to take it all in. I do not want that to fall upon my own ears let alone the ears of the children around me. It’s time for us to wake up…yes in America we have the freedom of speech but denying the name of the Savior….I don’t want to have to answer to that on the day I stand before the Lord.

Are there places where there is a conforming to the world, a place of compromise happening in the things falling upon our ears? TV, radio, movies, etc?